Whenever I feel down, I just think of all the people who believed and continuously believes in me. I don’t want to disappoint them. I don’t want people to look down on me and see a poor little girl who have reached failure. Pity is not something I easily take from people. But aside from that, I don’t want to disappoint myself. I have set the bars high for the things I want to achieve. And though people can try to discourage me, I have learned that nothing can ever affect me as long as I decide not to let it affect me at all. The mind can be honed in a way that you decide what to believe in, and what to disregard. And the heart can tell you when to fight for things, and when to concede the battle. As of now, I can see a lot of reasons for me to just let go and free myself of all the responsibilities that I am currently handling. But I chose to look away from all these and just focus on the one thing that kept me going throughout all my hardships: my goals. I need to focus on the goal. Though people are starting to become annoying, I’d rather use my time thinking of sensible things. Hating them would do me no good. Perhaps I can rant about it once in awhile, but then 60 seconds of complaining about the shortcomings of other people is a minute of wisdom that could have been shared with people who are more worthy of my time. I just need to focus. FOCUS.
June 2013
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- Lily: That is a terrible way to break up with someone.
- Marshall: Okay, in my client's defense, is there an unterrible way to break up with somebody? No.
Thus my reason for holding back. Must. Stay. Focused.
Hm. English and Filipino only :-) Actually, I know a little korean because of the classes I took before. But no, I’m not fluent in speaking the language.
Hm Hi dear. :-) Actually choice ko naman talaga yung pagiging single. Medyo busy kasi ako and feeling ko and baka mawala focus ko kapag magkaboyfriend ako ngayon. I’m just setting my priorities. And for the mean time, wala ang lovelife sa list of priorities ko :) Pero thank you kung tingin mo full package na ako (though feeling ko ang dami ko pang pagkukulang and dami kong insecurities ngayon).
Pero pwede po ba humingi ng favor? :-) Kasi okay naman ako ngayon, and i think James and Steph is already happy with their relationship. Let them be. Friends naman kaming tatlo. LOL Hindi ko alam kung ano yung meron sa amin dati na tiga mean mo, pero ayun, tapos na yun :-) Move forward na tayong lahat.
Thank you na lang sa concern mo. But seriously, it’s okay na. Sana happy ka na din kasi masaya na din po ako :)
PS. if it’s not too much, may I ask pala kung sino to? I won’t tell anyone. *fingers crossed*
Take care. :)
Alam mo yung pakiramdam na okay na ako sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon. Hindi man ako masaya parati, hindi man kumpleto ang tulog ko sa isang araw, hindi ko man magawa ang lahat ng gusto ko, okay na ako sa nangyayari kasi kuntento na ako. Pero hindi ko alam kung bakit minsan kailangan pang may mangyari para pagdudahan ko kung ito na talaga yung buhay na gusto ko. Alam mo yung tipo na masaya na lahat sa ganito e, pero talagang may eepal pa. Parang gusto ka lang paalalahanin ng mga bagay bagay na nawawala sa buhay mo. Mga bagay na siguro gusto mo, pero hindi mo lang iniisip. Siguro kasi natatakot ka, nahihiya ka, o kaya naman nag papakamanhid ka. Ang gulo din. Ang hirap. Hindi ko alam. Okay na sana lahat pero hindi. Magulo -_-
that can encompass this ache,
‘missing’ is too small.” —Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson (via tylerknott)
It’s just sad that some people are happy today not because it’s independence day but because it’s a mere holiday and we get to enjoy a day off from all our busy schedules.
I mean what’s the point of posting Happy Independence day if the people no longer acknowledge the sacrifices made by our heroes let alone give importance to the freedom that we are enjoying now.
The world is complicated as it is. But it’s not the complicated things that worries me most in this world, it’s the placid moments, the happy and quiet times. It worries me because when you’re used to having good times, it would hurt a lot more when it gets taken away. When life gives you things to hold on to, you just can’t help but take it. And just when you’re used to holding it close to you, you just have to let go in order to hold on to other things that are of greater importance. Even though you get something better, it won’t take away the pain that you would feel when you let go. That’s why I get uneasy when things are going too well around me. You’ll never know when the good things would last. Scary thoughts Haay.
I don’t like giving life that much power over my emotions.
But then again, that’s life. What am I supposed to do?
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